December 2nd, 2016

Saw These and Thought of You | October

Allan Lewis

The sun is down before dinner and leaves are wet on the ground. I know where I am this time of year: wrapped up in a hood and a flannel, staring through a window to a spotlight left on all night. It’s early. It’s late. I’m nervous.

“Seen anything good lately?” “Where?”

“What are you doing with yourself these days?” “I don’t know.”

I’m making time to look so hard at nothing that I can see through the wall. I’m spending time thinking circular thoughts about what I should be doing and where I should be going. I’m standing still, and everything is starting to feel like a run off of colour. Shadow, light and colour.

VdS(x)

Allan Lewis

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November 18th, 2016

Come on, Come by…

Allan Lewis
*photo: Colleen

There hasn’t been much action here in the last few years. Mostly it’s been this “Saw These…” project that I never bothered to introduce or contextualize, paired with downcast maunderings and a few songs.

To explain:

After I finished No One Remembers I had a newborn to look after. Newborns turn into toddlers, and then into kids, but never into less of a commitment. Most of you reading are already converts to this gospel.

After Rosie arrived I started taking pictures. This was no accident- I wanted better documents of her life than a bank of iPhone images (not judging, I just needed a little more). As I made progress I wasn’t surprised to learn that, as with music, taking photos, fixing them up and prepping them for whatever you plan to do with them, takes time. I’m not complaining, just trying to put things in perspective.

So now I have two cool hobbies that get to compete with a daughter that I love, a wife that I love, my parents, my in-laws, my friends, keeping fit, watching sports, drinking beer, and taking trips. You can see that the hours get spread rather thin after a while.

Photos, not music-making or writing, have been my focus this year, and I’m good with that. I want to organize the images from ‘Saw These and Thought of You’ into a book once I’ve edited and posted the project’s December installment. When starting ST+TOY I thought there’d be a companion EP that would soundtrack the photos, but there hasn’t been time for that.

The world doesn’t need a book of pictures that I took, but I’m guessing that some of you who read this may be interested. I’ve learned over the years that connecting with people by sharing things you make is an important thing, even if some of it feels self-indulgent and a little boring. Uou try to make things as good as can be made.

So, once Saw These and Thought About You is out, all the photo bullshit will live at allanl.com. This place will revert to its once familiar guise as notepad and songster platform. For those of you who are listening, of course.

Bye, now.
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November 16th, 2016

Saw These and Thought of You | September

Allan Lewis

I spent a lot of time on the road this month, which means that none of these shots are of where I live. My hometown, I mean. What is that, anyway? My hometown? I’m not sure that I have any idea.

What if you’re never really satisfied with where you live, or what you do? Is that a problem? I’d say so. Is it uncommon? Probably not. Remote. Urban. Exciting. Quiet. I want all of these things but can’t wrap my head round any of them. You might respond by saying that they don’t match, or intersect, and you’d be right. I’m sorry, you are right.

These things don’t intersect, even when you force them. And so I’m stuck fighting a little war with myself. Lesson learned, I suppose.

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Allan Lewis

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October 14th, 2016

Saw These and Thought of You | August

Allan Lewis

Warm walks in hot spots- the top down and all of that. You can always do with a bit of colour, which is what the summer is for. Falling apart on the floor.

We roamed our neighbourhoods, bought little treats with dwindling cash, shared food and wine, and a few sorry tales of middle class misery: the trips we can’t afford, the things we wish we’d said. Shame on us for thinking any of this is that bad.

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August 29th, 2016

Saw These and Thought of You | July

Allan Lewis

Floating across a summer full of obligations: big feelings with old friends, days on decks, days in wrecks. Gas in, gas out. Even when I’m lost and battling 3-day hangovers, I can’t find you anywhere. You’re hiding: behind a book; behind a screen; behind a smile that says “I don’t think so.” Summer of 2016 is turning into something awful(ly special), and I feel like I’ve spent it by myself.
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August 2nd, 2016

Saw These and Thought of You – June

Allan Lewis | Van der Saar
(Sorry this post was slow. I’m aware that we’re into August. Put this on tumblr but for whatever reason did not mount it here. Oh well.)

There was more colour in June, but not a ton of time for photos. A/B testing my life away, if you can believe that (I can’t). Still managed to sneak a few shots, as I always do. Really enjoying the little one taking a “Juice Box Whizz.”

The music’s missing from this project, but the motivation’s returning. Gosh there’s a lot on, don’t you ever find?

Halfway through the year project and I’m still thinking of you. Do you think we’ll ever meet and figure things out? One by one, perhaps we’ll try. Love you.

VdS(x)

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